i don't know, I hate guessing. I don't want to get hurt. I feel like running, saying fuck it. That a man like him would never take a second look at me. It takes every fiber in my body to tell me to stop second guessing.

I like him, I hope he knows that.. in each lame excuse I make to talk to him, each movie and reaching out to him in the tens on messages that I send and I receive.

he makes me feel like this is all part of a friendship. Something I was so good at doing before. and when it counts, it's being done onto me.. a cruel joke..

I like you, quirks and all.. you too have insecurities, I have mine. And I respect you for that. I see you.



Maybe I was over zealous in claiming that I like you, that there are so many things I find that could mean that you feel the same way about me. Can't it be simple. I like you and I hope it'd be reciprocated.

I promise that this is it. That I probably been going about relationships all wrong. its not about character, its about how you look its about settling. And I'd rather live a lonely existence than to settle.

I kinda wished I too was going diving. I don't know if you would want me there. I want to tell you that i'd be missing you. That it kinda sucked that this week we've both been so busy. I hoped that maybe we would miraculously find the time to squeeze in a movie, my excuse to hangout and spend time together.

it was kinda sweet that despite all the things you had to do today, you still found the time to humour me. You must be so busy.

More and more I find you becoming a person I turn to; Someone who listens to my daily commentary. Just are you share yours with me.

Maybe I am dreaming, it probably is my imagination. But you wish me good night. Yup. I know the drill. I'd drop you one when I get home safe. lunches and movies I can attribute to being friends and hanging out. especially since no one else could watch a movie with me at 10am in the morning :)

I have feelings for you, but I have no idea how you feel. I just want to take it slow, find out where this leads. I hope one day to be let into your world. To take care of you and hopefully get showered with your TLC.

it is a strange feeling to be this honest about how I feel about you. But I have learnt that there is no use keeping it in.


Things are simple, leaning in
he reaches over and glances stolen
can't tell him, I am afraid
he's amazes and never waits