i think at one end of the spectrum, I am really tired of being single. Its not the couple that walk by, or the painful reminders. Its not even the biological clock, nor the aunty pressure. I just would like to be with someone who could possibly look out for me from time to time and I would love to reach out to him. Cuddles of course is a plus *beams*

On the other end, I am hearing all this frustration from friends saying looking out for someone is so tough. It sometimes validates my singlehood. I heard complains, I watch as compromise leads to wasting away of preplanned worthwhile visions and dreams of new places and things. I watch as people squabble, sniffle and wallow over relationship blunders.

i saw myself in the mirror today for who I am, not who I see myself as nor the person that I know I'll become. And I understand that I have been slightly deluded to think that someone mindblowingly great is going go come along. Wake up dar... you dont have the looks, brains or personality. At least not a package deal at least..

so there it is... what I would give to have someone to call when I have a bad day. someone to share the moments that make me smile. I dont ask for prince charming. He needn't be. I just want to be me, a better me.