at present i cannot comprehen how people can stay married..
if i were them i would be tearing at their guts..
its been 2 maybe 3 days.. n i feel like i'm walking in a dessert.. dying of thrist..
yet outside.. there is nothing but rain..
its times like this when you are feeling so upset that you jus tke everything that happens to you as a sign..
well.. i turned on my md.. n put it to shuffle.. n the song that played was "so yesterday"
it surprisingly made my day..

i wrote a letter..thats as far as i have gotten..
this jus sucks...
i dunnoe what to sae.. i jus freeze..
but thats me..
what new..
but i hate where i am now..
i keep telling myself that it will change.. give it a couple of days..
the days tick my slowly... n i'm feeling miserable..argh...
somebody save me...!!!

sheesh... i'm finally attached n to think this was suppose to be blissful.. i'm having the shittiest time of my life...i don't love ariel animore.. then y did i get together woth him.. oh yea.. so that i ont regret.. somehow i'm regretting not saying no...
aniwae.. n is not any different then yesterdae or the dae before.. its still the same o;ld me.. n the freaking same old him.. who am i to think that he was going to change jus becoz we are a couple.. this is complete crap... argh/!!!@!.. i have to live with my action... we were so far beyond this relation ship thing... now why did he have to vbring itu0p...
i hate this.. they should jus call it calling buddies... if that is you ask me.. thats the only difference.. now he thinks that he has the priviledge to call my house.. thats all.. to talk about crap.. he is a lousy person to talk on the phone with... n i'm here getting pissed off at myself...