i begin to question why am I here... do I have the drive to push on..
well the kids here are abolutely adorable and they make me smile...
but the everything in between simply annoy me...
admin... parents.. outdoors... time wasting... argh...

in that time in between.. I keep thinking and looking forward for someone that I can love and appreciate..
I would like to fall hard and fast for someone.. I can't wait..
but I know that I have to patient... i'm just glad that for now I feel whole.. well sometimes I falter...
however I have been doing pretty good...

it would be easy to fall blindly jus because it just easy to fall... and the feeling of falling is such a thrill... and though I long to be held, its a challenge everyday remember the right reasons... that love for love.. and not for loneliness...

patience... haiz...

only wish he was here.. wish he wasnt busy... ihate to admit that I miss him.. he's sure going to gloat...
argh...