guess its not only crunch week for me, but for my friends too.. i mean in other senses.. mind is sch work.. but darius is fighting loneliness.. which i feel is much worst.. i can tell that cos he has so much free time now he realises that he misses love.. someone to hold at the endof the day...poor thing... i mean i want to help him, but i really dun know how... i mean he needs someone and i dun know where to drw the line? i want to help but i'm afraid i would over step my boundaries afterall this is the only way i know how... so what am i to do.. i mean.. as a friend.. and as someone that cares.. i feel i should.. haiz.. confused.. this relationship leaves me a bit loss as to where to stand when it comes to circumstances like this...

then there is ariel too.. who at the start of this week was thinking about us.. n i guess he misses it.. i miss it too... but i wont say that.. i luv andrew...i know that i will never marry the guy.. but its crazy..i luv himto death...andi cant live without him...but ariel..i love spending time with him...n i think thats wrong... i'm sorry baby for enjoying myslf and getting lost in a deep conversation.. its like that.. i'm missing an aspect of a relationship, and i dun really know what to do.. but go seaching for it in other places... i'm really lost.. but i thik we're working at it.. n its ben getting better.. yeah..so i've got no complains.. luv my baby...

=BoTTle=- says:
hey there...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hihi
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
howz u been?
-=BoTTle=- says:
great!
-=BoTTle=- says:
wu's the little boy!
-=BoTTle=- says:
how u?
-=BoTTle=- says:
sun burnt?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha yeah
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
tat lil boy is my cousin
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
cute rite?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
yeaps...
-=BoTTle=- says:
how are you and dom..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
u forever onli tokin abt her siaz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
n you...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
there's nothin between us lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
juz veri gd frens lorz
-=BoTTle=- says:
no i mean...
-=BoTTle=- says:
is the friendship okay..
-=BoTTle=- says:
dun really want drew to screw anithin...
-=BoTTle=- says:
haiz..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
yeah its fine alr
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
tink it became stronger too
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
howz u n drew then?
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe.. great!
-=BoTTle=- says:
i hear ur quite the gentleman...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wat sia
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
tat i open doors for pple etc?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
whaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
n carry bags...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
gosh...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i honestly dun know how u put yourself up to carrying girlie bags...
-=BoTTle=- says:
cos i wont want to put any guy thru that torture...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
sorry com went crazy
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
u were sayin?
-=BoTTle=- says:
i honestly dun know how u put yourself up to carrying girlie bags...

-=BoTTle=- says:
cos i wont want to put any guy thru that torture...

jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm i'll onli carry it if it looks ok
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but aso usualli pple wun pass mi the bag if its too girlie
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
aiwae nothin wrong abt tat wat
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
its juz how u look at it i guess
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:

-=BoTTle=- says:
yea.. i guess thats true...
-=BoTTle=- says:
aniwae...
-=BoTTle=- says:
ur good lah.. hats off to ya...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
fif i were you... i would do it..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i wouldnt do it
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
maybe i do tat ratehr often so it does not come across my mind lorz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
y not?
-=BoTTle=- says:
well.. i think... if they dun want to carry their own bag...
-=BoTTle=- says:
then they shouldnt bring it out in the first place..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but if they juz came from somewhere like maybe school then no choice wat
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
dun tink pple will not bring bags if they dunwan to ba...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
quite stupid lidat
-=BoTTle=- says:
erm... my point exactly...
-=BoTTle=- says:
so if you want to bring a bag..
-=BoTTle=- says:
carry it yourself...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
ok put things simpler lahz k
-=BoTTle=- says:
oh i heard u guys stayed super late yest ... at zouk...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i'll onli carry pple's bags if i feel tat its heavy then i'll offer to help
-=BoTTle=- says:
oh...
-=BoTTle=- says:
is it...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
if not i wun ask lorz
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
nvm u wun udnerstand
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea... i guess i wont...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
yeah phuture last nite was damn bloody gd
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
wah...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i thot no more clubbing for ya?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha changed my stand
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wun go clubbing unless being invited
-=BoTTle=- says:
icic... i'll take note of that...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha y u hav to???
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
or y u wanna tk note leh??
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
mi nv ask ur boy to go liaoz k
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
nono...
-=BoTTle=- says:
so that the next time i go clubbing.. i'll be sure to ask ya too!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha y suddenli wan to ask mi go leh
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
no what...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i rarely go clubbing...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i think the last couple of times is with ariel..
-=BoTTle=- says:
n you werent there...
-=BoTTle=- says:
so next time.. i'll be sure to get him to ask ya...
-=BoTTle=- says:
u noe.. i've never gone clubbing with drew...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmmz..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i should huh?!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha dun get mi involved again ya
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
wonder what he's ACTUALLY up to...
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope..
-=BoTTle=- says:
like i said.. i dun go clubbing with hm...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha i noe
-=BoTTle=- says:
how was navigation.. did you get ur pic taken with a sexy bikini clad babe..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha nopez
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wasnt't interested believe it or not
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
no surprise...
-=BoTTle=- says:
u dun seem the type...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wat type?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm... well.. hehe... u noe.. gentlemanly..
-=BoTTle=- says:
chivalrious
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
pengz!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so fast u start to stereotype mi liaoz ah
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so is drew a chivalrous gentleman too?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
or u dun allow him too?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hmm...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hee
-=BoTTle=- says:
its not a sterotype
-=BoTTle=- says:
it was meant as a complement...
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea... its mostly cos i dun need him too..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha but it sounded rather sarcastic siaz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i like to take care of myself...
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope.. i meant it!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
ur luffing at mi rite...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
dun tink i dunno...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
if you sae so...
-=BoTTle=- says:
gave you a compliment...
-=BoTTle=- says:
n if you ask ariel...
-=BoTTle=- says:
u rarely hear complements from me..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i think ur real chivalrious..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i mean from what you sa in conversations b4.. can kinda tell..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
actualli wat does chivalrious mean?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'm reeaally not use to it...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmmz...
-=BoTTle=- says:
like..
-=BoTTle=- says:
courteous..
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm.. i think brave..
-=BoTTle=- says:
like a knight...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
brave????
-=BoTTle=- says:
u know.. in SHINING armour...
-=BoTTle=- says:
saving damsel n distress...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wat did i do to make u say tat man!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i mean.. thats the meaing...
-=BoTTle=- says:
like treating als really well n stuff...
-=BoTTle=- says:
gals
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm ok thanks!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hey.. so i hear ur asking the prettiest gal from sch to go with ya to comms ball...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
seriousli u realli heard alot of things abt mi ah...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so scary!!
-=BoTTle=- says:
well..
-=BoTTle=- says:
actually its not much...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i really dun know that much about ya..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but u noe...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i see ariel a whole bunch..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so we talk about new stuff..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so this is whats new with ya right...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha so u guys tok abt mi too...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hmmm...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh aniwae!
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
there was once u n ariel were tokin abt mi then u all came up wf one conclusion abt mi rite?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
it was quite sme time ago
-=BoTTle=- says:
well.. when did you hear that?
-=BoTTle=- says:
if u can recall the conversation...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i guess i could figure out what i said..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i dunno lehz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but it was smt abt my personality i guess
-=BoTTle=- says:
when did you hear that aniwae?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm can;t rem
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
was quite long ago
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
real long ago
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
cant help you there...
-=BoTTle=- says:
y you want to know?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but i onli rem tat its when u n ariel headed out for a drink
-=BoTTle=- says:
at cb?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
no lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
juz some ordinary day
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but dun tink u can rem aso lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
u werent there?
-=BoTTle=- says:
i guess not..
-=BoTTle=- says:
okay.. so y do you want to know?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh it was a qn tat was puzzling mi last time
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
tink it was smt abt mi unable to get ani girls during clubbing or smt
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i think it was at dinner
-=BoTTle=- says:
we didnt come to any conclusion...
-=BoTTle=- says:
we were jus mentioning that u seem to be very unlucky with women...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'm thinking ...
-=BoTTle=- says:
maybe its cos ur too nice?
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
huh?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
watz the link?
-=BoTTle=- says:
no link...
-=BoTTle=- says:
aniwae. yea.. i rem that...
-=BoTTle=- says:
nuthin lah..
-=BoTTle=- says:
we were just talking bout how u should get a gf...
-=BoTTle=- says:
but this kinda thing... well... it happens..
-=BoTTle=- says:
u cant go around in search of love..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so i guess that wont happen...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so hoe should i get a gf?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
dunno...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'm not a good person to ask...
-=BoTTle=- says:
u can ask dom?
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha actualli do u tink she's a bad girl or smt seriousli?
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope..
-=BoTTle=- says:
jus look for love in the wrong place..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i jus think she really need someone right now..
-=BoTTle=- says:
u noe attention..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but ..
-=BoTTle=- says:
thats what i think..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i really dun know her like you do...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha i guess she's juz a little playful lahz
-=BoTTle=- says:
cos i dunno know how anione can be so straight forward..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i wouldnt dare...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha we come from different worls i guess
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i mean..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i dun take any offence..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but she asked my bf.. if he was interested in her..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i personally wouldnt do a thing like tt esp if h's attached..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i cant grasp.. where she is coming from..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha there might be things between them which u n i dunno aso wat rite
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i aso dunno lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
muz ask her then will noe
-=BoTTle=- says:
well.. if there was...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i def want to know..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
aniwae heard tat u wanna meet her huh
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
but drew insist there isnt...
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i think she's a cool babe.. n she'll got a whole lot of guts...
-=BoTTle=- says:
wanna learn.. hehe
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha dun tink u mean wat u say rite
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i sure am...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i think she's funky...
-=BoTTle=- says:
for being so straight forward...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha ok
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
actualli i asked her if she was keen on meeting up wif u
-=BoTTle=- says:
n?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but she said there wasnt realli a need to lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
n i aso tink so
-=BoTTle=- says:
i dun need to too..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but it'll be cool...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
later u two end up catfighting
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i dun catfight..
-=BoTTle=- says:
its a serious waste of energy...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh heard u were quite naughty b4 u were together wif drew rite?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i was?
-=BoTTle=- says:
what dd ya hear?
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha...
-=BoTTle=- says:
isit?
-=BoTTle=- says:
thats a first...
-=BoTTle=- says:
but i could understand y ppl would say that..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wat happend actualli?
-=BoTTle=- says:
huh?
-=BoTTle=- says:
fistly what are ou talking about...
-=BoTTle=- says:
firstly
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
abt ur complicated love life
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
haiz...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i see you've heard about it...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
juz a little lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wat hppened man
-=BoTTle=- says:
so.. how much did ariel tell ya?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
juz watever i'm askin u lorz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
so i guess you figured it out by now that ariel n i have history...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
eh kinda
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but i dunno whether u two hav been togetehr anot
-=BoTTle=- says:
i mean.. i thot it was pretty obvious at social nite..
-=BoTTle=- says:
cos.. gary n samuel regconised me as ariel's fren...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
uh huh
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
n then>
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
?
-=BoTTle=- says:
u jus want to know..if ariel's my ex. right?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
not wanna noe lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
juz finding out lorz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
it's fine if u wanna keep mum
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
=]
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm..
-=BoTTle=- says:
there's no fixed answer for that question though...
-=BoTTle=- says:
complicated huh?
-=BoTTle=- says:
well..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
stead likeen?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
stead like frens?
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm..
-=BoTTle=- says:
summary lah...
-=BoTTle=- says:
we both spend a lot of time tgt..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so.. i wont deny that i had feelings for him..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but.. i guess with A levels.. n stuff.. it was never the right time..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so though we were close..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
sorry mi back!
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
did u say anithig?
-=BoTTle=- says:
dun tell u liao lah...
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahahaha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
dun lidat leh./..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
ahha
-=BoTTle=- says:
impt part u leave...
-=BoTTle=- says:
okay.. u ask questions.. i'll ans..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm ok can u like copy paste watever u said u ask juz now?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hahah
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'll give you my most honest answers to what eva questions you have...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
y not?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
as in after i said stead like frens then wat did ya say?

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but.. i guess with A levels.. n stuff.. it was never the right ...

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so though we were close..

-=BoTTle=- says:
what is stead like fren?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hmm...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
ok like u two are still frens but u two behave like u two were in a relationship?
-=BoTTle=- says:
it was more like.. we were really good frens.. n everyone wanted us to get attached..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but none of us made the next move..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
cuz u dinwan to or wat?
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
or u tot u was better of to be ur fren...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
ariel didnt want to...
-=BoTTle=- says:
it was A's n he didnt want to screw it up..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh okok
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea..
-=BoTTle=- says:
well..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so i presume tat both of u had feeling for one another then
-=BoTTle=- says:
i thot that was established..
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe..
-=BoTTle=- says:
yea.. i use to like ariel...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
then y not after a's?
-=BoTTle=- says:
well.. we tried..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
as in?
-=BoTTle=- says:
i had moved on
-=BoTTle=- says:
it was kinda weird for us to be in a relationship..
-=BoTTle=- says:
we know too much about each other...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha tatz wat actualli happened btwn mi n dom
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
interesting...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
yeah onli tat she din like mi lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
ic...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but the end state is as per u n ariel
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
yeah
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
then wat abt b4 ariel then?
-=BoTTle=- says:
b4 ariel?
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope. there's no one...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so how mani bf did u hav b4 then?
-=BoTTle=- says:
didnt know any boys while i was in sec. sch..
-=BoTTle=- says:
never saw the need to...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha icic
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
then jc muz hav been very flingy for u then
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope
-=BoTTle=- says:
in jc.. i was...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i like to do stuff wih ariel...
-=BoTTle=- says:
liked
-=BoTTle=- says:
no flings lah..
-=BoTTle=- says:
not pretty enough to have flings man...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hmm okok
-=BoTTle=- says:
well..
-=BoTTle=- says:
yeaps...
-=BoTTle=- says:
u were saying naughty...??
-=BoTTle=- says:
y naughty?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha juz a general word lahz
-=BoTTle=- says:
if i was high...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
cuz i heard u were in n out of relationships b4 drew n sriel was one of them lorz
-=BoTTle=- says:
maybe i'll tell ya more..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
high?
-=BoTTle=- says:
u know.. buzzed...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh ok
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so u actualli keeping some stuff from mi aso lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
i said/... i'll tell ya only if you ask...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i did mahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but u said nothin wat
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'm doing the best i can
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha ok la
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
dunwan to stress u out so much aso
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but thanks for trusting mi so much
-=BoTTle=- says:
no lah.. its not stressful at all..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
aprreciate it
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
-[
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
=]
-=BoTTle=- says:
no probs..
-=BoTTle=- says:
there's loads of things ariel keeps to himself...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
maybe some other time then u feel like telling mi then gd lorz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
gaga
-=BoTTle=- says:
i hope sharing things with you can help him...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
like?
-=BoTTle=- says:
r at least help you understand where he is coming from...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
simpler pls
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
sorrie...
-=BoTTle=- says:
ariel doesnt share his feelings very much..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so what eva you hear from him.. is probably not the full thing..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so i hope by sharing it with you..
-=BoTTle=- says:
when he talks bout stuff..
-=BoTTle=- says:
u can understand it better...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh okok thanks
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
aniwae din noe if ariel told u this
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but i once told him tat i'll be veri happy i f i could find a gf who i can talk to like u
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
tink ur realli nice to tok to
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:

-=BoTTle=- says:
y thanks...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe
-=BoTTle=- says:
ur pretty nice to talk to too!
-=BoTTle=- says:
okay..
-=BoTTle=- says:
shall i answer ur naughty part...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha if u feel tat u can trust mi enuff ba
-=BoTTle=- says:
its nothing scandalous...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha then no harm tokin abt it then
-=BoTTle=- says:
i liked ariel in j2...
-=BoTTle=- says:
so when i found out he did want to take it a step further...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i was crushed..
-=BoTTle=- says:
met some guy at my friends party..
-=BoTTle=- says:
found out we both use to have a crush on each other..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
ok thenz?
-=BoTTle=- says:
so we hit it off..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but that didnt last very long..
-=BoTTle=- says:
then A's were over..
-=BoTTle=- says:
n ariel decided that we should get attached..
-=BoTTle=- says:
erm..
-=BoTTle=- says:
that seriously didnt work out..
-=BoTTle=- says:
for a month i couldt see ariel without getting mad at him...
-=BoTTle=- says:
n while i was with ariel... i like some other guy..
-=BoTTle=- says:
how happens to be my da ge...
-=BoTTle=- says:
who
-=BoTTle=- says:
what i didnt know was that he liked me too...
-=BoTTle=- says:
by this time i was dating andrew
-=BoTTle=- says:
confused yet?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm did anithign happen between u n ur da ge?
-=BoTTle=- says:
yups...
-=BoTTle=- says:
got tgt with him..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but didnt work out too..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
then finally it was wif drew rhen
-=BoTTle=- says:
yeaps...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so howz the timeline like then
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
dun u need to sleep?
-=BoTTle=- says:
well..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i liked ariel from beginning j2
-=BoTTle=- says:
in june i met the guy i had a crush on..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
erm i dunhav to
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but i dunno bout u tho
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hehe...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i'm rather fasinated that i'm telling you this..
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope..
-=BoTTle=- says:
no need sleep...
-=BoTTle=- says:
that guy.. well we werent tgt..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but we flirt.. thats bout it... hmm.. till bout prelims..
-=BoTTle=- says:
ariel was in jan
-=BoTTle=- says:
da ge.. in march
-=BoTTle=- says:
andrew in august...
-=BoTTle=- says:
yeaps..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
so u onli flirted wif the guy u met at the party lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
?
-=BoTTle=- says:
so 2004... was a really shit year for me...
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
-=BoTTle=- says:
let me explain...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i dranks a lot that night..
-=BoTTle=- says:
drank
-=BoTTle=- says:
so he n i were.. how do u put it..
-=BoTTle=- says:
initimate?
-=BoTTle=- says:
ewwh..
-=BoTTle=- says:
goose bumps..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but yea..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hahaha ok understood
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
go on...
-=BoTTle=- says:
we liked each other...
-=BoTTle=- says:
but.. he's not a good personality..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so i was torn as to taking the next step...
-=BoTTle=- says:
but i'm glad i didnt...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
oh okok
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
not i noe...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
now
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm.. come to think of it.. it think i could write a book...
-=BoTTle=- says:
damn drama
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha kinda
-=BoTTle=- says:
so.. yea.. u know my story...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
sounds rather scandalous if i din noe u
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
okay..
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i realised tat u realli trust pple too easili noe...
-=BoTTle=- says:
it's more like i have nothing to hide...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
yeah i noe
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but still its a little too fast to share such touchy stuff wif someone u dun realli noe like mi rite?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
actually i think its easier to share it with you...
-=BoTTle=- says:
then ppl i already know...
-=BoTTle=- says:
cos..
-=BoTTle=- says:
they'll judge
-=BoTTle=- says:
that whole episode..
-=BoTTle=- says:
was seriously out of character...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha i would hav done so lah
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but to mi ur very nice
-=BoTTle=- says:
but.. its entertaining...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i tell my friends bout it not..
-=BoTTle=- says:
its really quite funny...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
funny??
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but i can understand but u do this lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i tink...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but y do u trust mi so much ah?
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
or is it the same for evryone aso
-=BoTTle=- says:
u asked...
-=BoTTle=- says:
pretty much...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
chey...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
i tot i was special
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
okay lah.. not everyone...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha okok
-=BoTTle=- says:
but generally..
-=BoTTle=- says:
well i'm talking to someone else..
-=BoTTle=- says:
n never in a million year would i tell him...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
y not?
-=BoTTle=- says:
his reasons for talking to me are questionable..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i mean..
-=BoTTle=- says:
he's talking to me cos he use to like me...
-=BoTTle=- says:
which kinda totally grosses me out...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hmm ok point to tk note...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm.. but that doesnt really appl..
-=BoTTle=- says:
hmm.. its more like he isnt on the same page?
-=BoTTle=- says:
idunno...
-=BoTTle=- says:
he jus gives me goose bumps...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
cuz he sounds veri mushy n stuff?
-=BoTTle=- says:
nope...
-=BoTTle=- says:
if you really mus noe.. he's this ah beng...
-=BoTTle=- says:
who when he was really drunk.. wanted to stalk me home
-=BoTTle=- says:
his classmates had to sop him..
-=BoTTle=- says:
stop..
-=BoTTle=- says:
n they got another friend to accompany me off...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha scary
abriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
hate ah bengz
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
yupz...
-=BoTTle=- says:
this kinda ppl i dun trust...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
haha u shud
-=BoTTle=- says:
wahaha
-=BoTTle=- says:
yeaps...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
aniwae still the same thing i told u lahz
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
trusting pple is gd
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but trusting pple too much isn't goin to do u ani gd
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
pple might juz step over ur head
-=BoTTle=- says:
thats not really true
-=BoTTle=- says:
i've had ppl who tried to step over my head..
-=BoTTle=- says:
but..
-=BoTTle=- says:
i trust..
-=BoTTle=- says:
so i've got friends who stick by me no matter what...
-=BoTTle=- says:
i guess some ppl arent so lucky...
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
get ur idea
jabriel "i can't really explain it but i'm so into you..." says:
but still keep watever i tell u in mind ya?

contrary to what i said 2 weeks ago.. i'm feeling much better.. i think over last weekend we spent quaity time tgt.. i dun know exactly what we did different.. but it was really obvoius that we both needed it.. i guess it was affirmation that both of us share a much deeper connection.. jus holding him.. knowing that everythin between us was okay.. n though i'm shaken by this bout with dom.. i happy to say that we've come out strong.. n a bit squirmy.. hehe

i know why i was frustrated.. bcos i had expectations.. n though i told myself it didnt matter.. in actual fact they did..

its not that they dont matter anymmore.. or that i have no expectations now.. this week was funny.. everthing this week jus flowed easier.. n things i wished for last week.. materalised.. so i guess.. i should learn to be more patient..

so after watching the movie.. they are still plenty of questions i have about life left unanswered.. my life is is grounded.. my love is whole.. i've got someone to share it all with...

i don't really know what to think what to say.. all i know is i'm really happy.. feeling really blessed.. that there is someone who loves me so much.. It really strange when i come to think about it.. drew puts up with me even though i'm needy and loves his attention.. i think about him so much and yet we're never that far apart. he cant see me often and i deal with that, and after he finishes up army, he's going to fly far away.. what am i going to do then?.. i know it shouldnt matter now.. cos i'm suppose to treasure what i have.. live for now.. what will be will be.. right? i mean.. i've fallen.. fallen so deeply.. right about now.. i cant live without him.. in relationships ppl always eventually get hurt.. so why not cut your losses... miss out on everything thats good.. so that it wont hurt so bad when it ends.. i'm afraid.. like drew said.. we dont want it to end.. but long term could be a year.. could be a month.. we'll wait and see? i could live with that i guess.. what's left is this nagging insecurity that everthing that we've got going for us.. would disappear.. baby i wish you could hear me? you'll probably say not to worry.. n like you i'm probably over thinking the situation.. but i cant help myself i guess.. but writing it down and getting it off my chest does seem to ease the pain. so though i love you baby.. with me its a daily struggle not to pull away... and through no fault of your own.. i faulter..

gossip



so the guys are in camp.. so it'll be a week before they read anything online..
what's up with me you ask?

well nothing much other than the fact that i've
this week to finish all my assignment..
and i keep complaining that i don't get to seee drew enough...

oh!oh! say bout that

he went out with some girl..
not just any girl..
a girl who keeps throwing herself at him..
and i honestly don't know what to think..
cos i know that she knows that drew is attached..
y..? cos i've freaking met that bitch...

not that i think she's bitchy or anything...
she's a nice gal.. i think...but i dont think i can keep that up for long
i'll just be deluding myself
i wont go into details
esp not her name.. although that would be tempting

i wonder what is going on in her head...

drew's to blame too man...
i mean its only like coffee n a movie right?!
but its more than that..
its the reason y he went..
drew if you remembered what you ssaid to me...
wah.. that was wicked... couldnt believe it came from ya

whateva it is..i'm feeling really numb
at first i thot it was really funny...
then jealous... jus a tad...
then mad... that he didnt tell me he went out with her
the only thing he ever said to imply in was "nothing happened"
then he just told me today... fuck this shit...

so why this mess.. n why do i feel like shit?

n this has nothing to do with what i was feeling yesterday...
its all starting to add up.. rarh.. stressed...