on contrary.. I don't think he is.. I've just been way too critical, and he has feelings too. When talking about how I feel I better ease into it. He keeps saying that I scold him, I guess it could sound that way, when All I am doing is talking. Yes be it volume raised.

We only got 50 metres down the Changi Board walk when Theresa started complaining. I just wanted to check it out after the lovely Italian food that we had. Such a party pooper.

Its the simple things. Pasta. Wine. Red tea jelly. A walk. a great view. Great company.

Days like these should last for ever.

what if the person whom you're falling for is nothing like you?

What if he loves you more than you love him?

What if he's a slob? What if people you cared about said that he ain't right for you?

But what if no one else ever loves you?

Do you listen, to your heart or to your head. Or to the people you trust or the voice inside you. You know they say love is blind, and I don't want my vision impaired when I walk into this.


You know darling, that guy in your mind, that prince charming he ain't real.. I know you've met him.. but that one ain't yours.. It's back to reality for you.


I hope at the end of each day that I we could snuggle up on the sofa and watch TV, go for run in the morning and dine out just for fun. I wish he shared my taste for travel and adventure. someone who has an opinion, and is not afraid to point out my shortcomings. I hope he has a job and I pray that he will help me find my way back to god.

Admittedly, I feel that I don't belong in church. I have a big hole where spiritually once was and I don't know how to fill it, if I can't even own up to my shortfalls. For those reasons, I don't think I deserve.. from time to time I feel shitty like that.. its been tough but picking myself up has been my school of hard knocks..

I think it has made me a toughie with an acid tongue, and I don't take shit unless its my own.

I know now that I would not have been happy had I stayed.. no matter how I play it in my head. I would still be single now. and I have stopped beating myself about it. I think its time to fester up. put on a pair of heels and strutt my stuff.. lol...

gosh I feel really schizophrenic

nothing has changed. yet it all feels different when you have opened your heart.

Its great to do something for myself today. nothing.

the week has been long and its only tuesday.

sometimes I marvel at the both of them and how life has turned out so great. I would like that too. and maybe, just maybe it will..

Going to spend my day off lunching with fel and shopping. I think its gg to be amazing.. can't wait.