i think that there is something wrong with me.

I always prided myself on not letting people kmnow how I really feel especially when it was something really important. I would just take how they feel adapt it to how I feel and echo it back to them. It always worked!

Apparently not anymore... Maybe I am losing my touch.


The truth.

I miss andrew.
I can't read how he feels. and that scares the shit out of me.

Part of me really wants to reach out to him, but I am really afraid to do so. I mean what is the worst that can happen. He rejects me. but at least I would know, I can force myself to keep my distance.

Not knowing sucks!!

Maybe I do know how he feels and I just do not want to accept that. Maybe why I still cling on to him is cos I dont want to be lonely. My head hurts...


I want to put that out of my head...
What I really appreciate now is how we are now. I really should stop over thinking it... Argh!!!

Okay here is the deal girl...
just do what you feel..
keep true to yourself..
que sara sara