LALA ashlee simpsons

You can dress me up in diamonds
You can dress me up in dirt
You can throw me like a line-man
I like it better when it hurts

Oh, I have waited here for you
I have waited

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

You can meet me on an aero-plane
Or in the back of the bus
You can throw me like a boomerang
I'll come back and beat you up

Oh, I have waited here for you
Dont, keep me waiting

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna

You make me wanna la la
in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be a french maid
When I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up, I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream

I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright, with you
Cuz you hold, my secrets tight
You do, You do

now to something a little more touchy...
ariel.. okay.. everyone know that ariel n i have a history..
n our whateva of a rlationship we had was shit..
i mean unofficially.. i was with ariel for a year...
but that is = to extremely good friends...

i'm now with andrew n the happiest i've ever been...
but you know bad habits die hard..
n ariel is a bad habit..
i mean we use to do everything together..
i dun noe..
its like this..
at first time seems to flow easier with ariel..
but now it not so clear...

now
with ariel time is ceaseless..
deep conversations and long walks
we always have things to do tgt...
he's a comfort zone..
time spend with him is outrageously enjoyable..
spontaneous.. pleasurable..

n i feel like its a crime..

with andrew..
its always sweet and ends far too soon
every ounce of free time is shared with him..
he cuddles me.. hold me close
lets me watch him as he softly sleeps..
with him i share my deepest fears, hope & dreams
in reply he he kisses my cheek..

n i adore them both
not in the same way..
so tell me..
which one is love?

i think i should be mad a drew.. lol he thinks so too.. he's ever so far away.. n i miss him dreadfully.. so the think about this ktv.. well i guess i was more mad that he didnt tell me about it.. n let me find out from ariel.. he says he's insecure.. but what is there to be insecure about.. he knows it.. that day itself he told me that we can be honest about everythiung.. n then this happens.. bleah..

me being the truth seeker that i am.. went straight to him.. so now he wanted.. needed time to think... space..
i was so afraid that he was going to bail on me.. okay so i have to be honest.. i did breakdown a couple times.. god know what came over me.. i just thought about the whole situation.. n before i knew i was sobbing uncontrallably.. quite pathetic aye..

aniwae.. i tink theincident has mellowed out.. n cant wait for his return..